I always thought i would be the cute pregnant lady at the gym- still working out cause I enjoy it so much. But i have been proven wrong! The lack of energy is ridiculous. I wake up at 8 am and go to be at 9 pm everyday- I sleep for 11 hours minimum. I know this is good that i can still sleep in the last few weeks but i don't accomplish anything. Working all day makes it so that when i do get home i sit down and I'm down- with everything!
Kris has been awesome- he has picked up the slack on laundry and baby decoration and cleaning but not cooking! I have had so many aversions to smell and almost every food that cooking has been out of the question! We have spent way more money on eating out because i never know what I'm gonna want to eat and when. Kris can't even bank on a home made meal every Sunday cause its hit or miss on how I feel. I used to love cooking and baking and food in general and now it is something I loath... I just want to be normal again!!
This pregnancy has been full of sickness and the worst is yet to come! I actually have to deliver a baby out of me... which seems awfully uncomfortable and really shouldn't work even though it does. Going to our birthing classes have actually scared me cause now i know how it really works- I think i shouldn't have gone that night. It really makes me feel like that's not possible now.
Some of my hopes still survive- Savvy being a better baby because i had a terrible pregnancy. I'm hoping for sleeping through the night as easy as possible and breastfeeding being a cinch but only time will tell on these.
I am excited to see her and her personality and she how she changes on a daily basis! I'm also ready for that hormone that helps me forget how pregnancy really was so i do it again! Some days I'm just not so sure about that hormone...
At least i have these treasures to get me through the last 7 weeks!
2 comments:
I'll cross my fingers for you. Pregnancy can be crazy hard! I don't think anyone can really understand until they go through it.
Good baby or no, there will be good times and bad. Some days you will cry in your closet and wish you had waited another five years (or is that just me) but many days you look at the beauty that you were blessed with.
In a super sappy way (that I always forget); Heavenly Father picked you to raise this specific daughter for a reason. You will be ready...or made ready to handle what comes at you.
*Good baby vibes* *happy baby vibes* *Healthy baby vibes* *etc vibes*
I struggled with pregnancy a lot as well. I almost feel crazy for considering going through all that again. A lot of people told me "enjoy it now, that baby is a lot easier in than out!" Not so much. Less work? Sure. Not easier. I'll take 15 diaper changes and twelve feelings a day over constant vomiting and lack of sleep. And babies are so much cuter on the outside. Delivery was horrible for me. I never sugar coated anything to you, you know this. I wish I would have taken some sort of class. You may be glad you did. You'll have to let me know.
Before time is up, try to focus on the few good things about the actual pregnancy. I loved feeling Av kick and missed it. But having her on the outside is so much better. Being a mom is magical. Good luck! Let me know if you need anything ( and did you still want me to make some bedding?).
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